This thesis attempts to track four major components of my artistic process (situation, action, unknown, and consequence). These titles articulate a vocabulary for art works that take behavior as a medium, where an unseen performance is at the center of many different materials and objects. The writing style shifts between analytical, narrative, observational, and poetic voice as I seek to understand the place that I am in, writing until exhaustion, where, with revelatory simplicity, I collapse.
The problem for ephemeral events and performance is that artifacts and documentation do not re-perform themselves entirely to those who were not present, thus relying heavily on discourse. I suggest that though this is a problem of education and information, it is more fundamentally and urgently a problem of embodiment in order for ephemeral art, and art practices that do not result in commodifiable objects, to sustain themselves and evolve as a living system. I conclude that stable things are comprised of ephemeral things, this document being a prime example, in which I perform intellectually until exhaustion to produce a text that will perform in my absence.